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때는 바야흐로 한달 전,

모나미 웰컴 기프트에 잡지가 같이 왔었더랜다.


<모나미 웰컴 기프트 수령 후기> 



깔쌈한 표지에, 안이 다 영어로 되어있는 이 고급스런 잡지를 (내지가 엄청 두껍다) 

어떻게 써야 잘 썼다고 소문이 날지 조금 생각 해 보았다.


그래서 나온 결론은,

.

.


내 불렛저널의 한 칸을 모나미로 채우자!



준비물:


가위, 칼, 자, 풀, 잡지, 불렛저널


속지를 조금 뜯어 놓고 사진을 찍었다.

속지를 다 뜯은 뒤에는 마음에 드는 사진들만 추려서 모아 놓는다.



이제 재단할 차례다. 


추려 놓은 잡지 속지들을 훑어가며

불렛저널 사이즈에 맞게 자른다.



다 자른 뒤에는 불렛저널에 하나하나 배치해서 붙힌다.


붙힌 후에 남는 빈 공간에는 일기 또는 할일을 쓴다.

위의 사진처럼 말이다.


나는 문구류를 좋아하니까.. 

문구류의 사진이 가득한 마음에 드는 다이어리가 된 것 같다.


내 글씨체가 마음에 안들지만,... 

그건 어쩔 수 없는 걸로.



모나미 잉크랩에서 체험하고 받아온 클립도 불렛 저널 윗쪽에 껴 주었다.


이렇게 하면 한번에 이번 달이 있는 페이지로 플래너를 열 수 있다!



모나미 153과 한 컷. 

저 모나미 스티커 (도무송) 역시 잉크랩에서 받아온 스티커다.


모나미가 가득한 생활을 하며 소소한 행복이 늘어났다.

난 역시 문구류 팡인이 분명하다.


여러분도 이 블로그 글을 보고

잡지를 이용해 (모나미 것이 아니더라도) 다이어리 꾸미기를 해볼 수 있었으면 한다.


그럼 안녕!


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Yo. Long time no blog. I've been having a lot of things on my mind lately and a lot of growth too. I broke up with my boyfriend three months ago, and I've grown so much since then I thought I might as well write about stuff I've learnt. So here I am.

First month was bad. But it was okay to be miserable. I fucked up on my midterms and stuff but it was okay. (Actually it was not and my professors had no mercy but at least I didn't fail anything.) I let myself be okay and sad first. I think that helped a lot.

Second month was also bad but less bad. I had more time in hand, although it also meant a lot of late night thoughts endlessly occupying my mind. So they balanced out? Hmm. I made more real friends, as in, I got closer to my old friends and realized what it meant to have a close friend. It's a nice feeling, I gotta say. We went shopping together, spent a movie night wasted, took funny pictures and had good times and I feel comfortable opening up a bit more than I used to. :)

Third month was still difficult as fuck but I found myself more productive than when I was in a relationship. Ironic. Although I miss the companionship, this finals exam season wasn't that bad. If anything, I studied more than before and that makes me sad. Why can't my productivity and a relationship work at the same time?! It'd be great if I could have both.


Today I finally visited a mental clinic and diagnosed the root of my problems and turns out it's mild depression but it's been going on for some time (at least three years) so the doctor decided it might be a good idea to medicate me. Turns out it was a good idea. Depression is an imbalance of hormones so I'm all for meds that fix it as long as I don't kill my liver in the process. I didn't think about him tonight, which is the one thought that always kept me up at night. Can't believe something so small (the medicine) can actually make an impact. I'm much more content going to bed. The antidepressants I'm taking tomorrow morning is supposed to let myself be a little bit more motivated, I hope it clears a bit of my brain fog. Anyways. I learned a lot about me and how I work, what I want is still a work in progress but I'm happy just being myself. I just miss my friend, that's all. I've been meeting TONS of my old and new friends and the empty space of that one person is still pretty significant. Ouch. :')


Maybe one day we could meet as friends again. Until that day I'll work on becoming the best version of myself. :) Cheers, people. 


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Hey.


It's been a long year and a half. Two years, I should say.


You know, it's been only a day and I've been suffering so much. It's definitely less suffering than this whole week's worth of my suffering, so it's okay, but it's not okay. If I'm the one who dumped you, why am I so sad? Funny. 

I've been thinking and I still had a lot to say on my mind that I couldn't tell you yesterday. 


This is a closure letter for you and for myself.


Wow, I've actually ended the relationship. I can't believe it.

I guess now I've come to realize it was actually a huge part of my life.

If anything, I wish that you wouldn't think that I ended the relationship because I loved you any less than I used to.

(Which is sad. I know. But I'm a reasonable person. For your career, for my mental health, this had to end and I think we can both agree on that.) 


It's not your fault. You should realize that. Yes, it is your fault you can only prioritize your career above me. 

But that's the right thing for you, and that's not something to feel guilty for. We just weren't meant to be.

We're barely 20. The fact that you have your life prioritized is something you should be proud of. 

You're a special person to me that will never be able to get replaced by anyone else. I don't know if it's our time spent together, or everything we've shared with one another.


I was scared that I would drag on the relationship with false hopes and tire everyone out. I didn't want to hurt anyone, you or me, so I had to go ahead.

It might have been a bad choice. I regret maybe a little bit...but I really think it was the best choice for us long term.

There are many chances in life. Life moves on. 


I miss the old times when we were really close friends. So I went ahead and read our past messages because clearly I can't get over anything.

It surprised me how much we've changed. Our core and humor might not have changed, but the way we talk, the way we communicate.. It's all different now.

It made me a bit sad that maybe that we might not be able to go back to our previous selves. 


But we've grown as people. We're different people now.

We were both high school students, and we're both at university now pursuing something different than what we had originally planned for. 

Our lives will change so much over the next few years. Crazy, huh?


I don't know what I should do with the things that remind me of you. 

What about the things that never made it to you? How do I get rid of them? 

The 30 cards I wrote that never made their way to you? The presents? 


How do I survive this week without you? 


I've decided to call it a 'pause' - I'll let everything be, until I rack up the courage to put them away somewhere, to do something with them. 

As of now, I have no idea what to do with them and I have no motivation.. I feel alone in this world. But I'll eventually get better.


How was your first day of lectures? Labs? 

I wanted to be a part of your university life and growth, someone you could get support from. 

But that can't happen anymore and you didn't need my support anymore. 


Now that that's done with, I feel like our relationship could have gone better. I could have taken things more lightly. It could have been a break instead of a break-up. Less commitment. We could still have been 'together'. But that's not respectful to both you and me and everything we've went through together. There would be this awkward dying relationship lingering on, hindering both of us. At that point, is it even a relationship anymore? I know because I spent the whole last week thinking about it. It's better to move on when we both still like each rather than wait for guilt and resent to build up.


You know what I realized? We were on different pages. I didn't need you to provide anything, I wasn't missing out on anything, if that's what you worried about. I just needed communication and that's all. I don't know whether you thought you were limiting me in terms of options and chances, but that doesn't really matter when I'm not actively looking for a relationship. I was good with having only you by my side but you never understood and never gave me the communication I needed.


Any thought of this "could've gone better" is an illusion of a breakup. I wasn't happy with the relationship, you weren't. I just don't remember that bad feeling anymore because of your empty space. I really don't remember anything bad, maybe I could have endured it -- but I know you weren't emotionally available to take all my burden either. Expecting that from you would be rude of me, and quite frankly speaking, I'd like to think you were tired of my shit by the end of it too.


I vaguely remember, I didn't feel loved by the end. I felt neglected and ignored most of the time. Our communication ceased, your "I love you"s ceased. You stopped reading my messages. Did you notice that? Even if you read my messages, you never finished reading them, unlike before. I could have dealt with it but I think I've had my fair share of communication issues. It was like talking to a wall. I would like to think it was the stress getting to you transitioning into university, business, whatever, and I'm sorry for leaving you behind during the pressurizing times. But I wasn't willing to continue a relationship with someone I didn't feel loved with. Something didn't feel right. We weren't communicating enough, and I can't survive with someone knowing that I am not the priority in their lives. I didn't feel like I was getting what I needed, you were right. 


I tried my best, I know you did too. Thank you for that. Thank you for trying in the first place. We knew that this might not work out since the very beginning, but we decided to try it out. And that's all that matters. Because it was worth it.

It was the first time in my life where I felt appreciated for who I really was.

Me being able to become a more cheerful and outgoing person at university is partially thanks to you. 

I learned how to become vulnerable at times. More open-minded. And how to stay comfortable with myself being emotionally vulnerable.  


And I know you're going to be successful. Because you will be.

I hope you've learned more things about yourself too. I'm sorry I had to hurt you at the end. 


I know for myself that we both have to move on. I'll take some time to myself to build myself back up. 

I'll be able to move on. Meet someone better suited. Take care of myself, now that I've learned.


You know, since the very beginning, it's like you predicted this to happen. 

You started the relationship by you saying "We can and should have these romantic chats and whatever couples do, But at the end of the day, I would prefer us to be more like BFFs." We just didn't think it through and kinda became a solid couple which kinda ended bad, but, doesn't change the fact that you called it since the beginning, I feel like you should be a fortuneteller. 

You're always right btw. Not saying that as a joke but things you say eventually happen. :-)


We might have been the best for each other, we won't know. 

I truly believe that we had a relationship that no one else could understand (cheesy but the truth).

I don't have to regret anything we did, and this relationship as a whole, because all the memories I had with you were surely the happiest moments of my life. If we're meant to be, fate will put us back on the same path.


I have to heal. I have to make decisions for myself. We both didn't fit in terms of expectations and what we could do. 

One day, I might just be a more stable person with more confidence in my own career and life, more control over everything, and the same type of relationship might be possible just because we've grown up.


But I don't think that's what I want as of now. I'm too young, too immature, too fragile. 

You'll be able to meet someone if you treat them with everything you've treated me with, and I believe in my words. You should believe in yourself too.

Someone more understanding of your schedule. Someone who loves you as much as I did. Someone who is okay about not being a priority.


And that's what I hope you'll do. Even if you don't want to, I want you to move on. 

Because I realized that the person I used to love isn't available anymore. I barely recognize you now, all busy, prioritizing many different things over our relationship. We've all moved on in our own ways and that's not a bad thing. Maybe if I loved you enough I would be happy with you making new connections, learning new things, not being available and I wonder if it's a fault on my end too.


Even if we, per any chance, get back together in the future, it will not be the you and me we started off with in 2017. 

It will be the you and me in the future as two different people. Because unfortunately me and you of 2017 to 2019 didn't work out big time.


I want myself to move on. I'm doing well. 

Next time you see me, I'll introduce myself again as a new person because I will be a different person by then.

And I hope you will too. 


So good bye, my ex and bestie.

Thank you for everything. 


Farewell! Till next time. :)




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Of course, we could attend conferences, but it would be better if documentation was just available online.


That's why you need to write documentation. Whether that be a short, easy way to do things, or a really complicated method, writing it down will help someone else. Writing it down will help yourself. You'll get to remember more, understand more, and share your knowledge along the way.


I hope to write some docs over the next few months too.

Share your knowledge. Sharing is caring.


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http://phishinginfo.weebly.com/
A trip down memory lane.

Don't get baited, save your privacy.


Here's a ppt I made 6 years ago:


phishingmethods.pptx


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Updating my blog skin right now.

VERY CLUNKY. I HOPE TO GET THAT FIXED SOON.


Otherwise

I'm pretty excited to boot my blog back up.

Lovely stuff. See you all soon.

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It is okay to send mass emails

If the first try doesn't work, try a few more times.

Don't be afraid to nag.

Don't be afraid to send emails!

Linkedin is your friend

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Frozen food 2018-2019


Drinks


Juice boxes - $0.50

Love juices. Have nothing else to say. Easy to drink when stressed, gives a good sugar boost, is very tasty. Only downside is you have to buy two of them in order to pay debit.


Pop - $0.50

The regular pop. Sometimes have Pepsi (my love!) and sometimes Diet Coke (due to requests).

Exam season is fueled with Yerba Mate and Red Bull which costs a bit more ($1.75).


Dessert

Haagen dazs - $2.00

Good ice cream. Everyone knows it's good. Current VPI stocks around 6-8 boxes of these, but they run out by the end of the week. Some cube-ians seem like they use this as their meal. (Do not try at home.) A hard yet soft shell with hazelnuts embedded on them, DO NOT DROP these on the carpet floor, think of a smarter way to eat it. Methods include nibbling the shell THEN the ice cream, or eating the ice cream inside of its packaging. My method is to put the whole ice cream in my mouth as soon as possible.


Yogurt - $0.50

Good stuff when they're there. Even better when close to expiring so the Cube lets them out on $0.25. Great served cold, will give you a fruit boost if you hadn't had them for a long time.


Cookies - $0.50

Just normal Costco cookies. Good sugar boost. A little bit on the chewy side.


Chips - $0.50

A variety of chips.


Chocolate bars - $1.25

A little bit on the expensive side. However a great sugar boost. I don't pick these up usually because I'm good with the sugar I get from juice. Chocolate bars are too sweet for me.


Seasonal: Cheese sticks, Deep-fried peas


Fridge Food

NOTE: Please use a paper plate when microwaving these, not styrofoam.


Steak and cheese pockets - $1.00

2 minutes in microwave + leave for 2 minutes

Sounds boujier than the usual pizza pops. Fellow cube-ian rated 3.5/10 where he rated the pizza pops 3/10. I personally rate it 2.5/10. Worse than pizza pops. Cheese feels more quality, but couldn't find steak anywhere. Leaves a disgusting cheese smell in the Cube.


Pizza pops - $1.00

2 minutes on each side

Usually bacon+ham+cheese flavor. 2 in a pack. Will not make you full, that's for sure. Really hot when you take it out of the microwave and leaves a somewhat more bearable smell in the Cube. Usually people appreciate that it smells like pizza pops because it makes them wanna buy one too. Not that good of a smell in my personal opinion. But I enjoy eating it sometimes. Fair amount of ham and cheese in there.


Fried rice - $2.25

3 minutes inside the plastic packaging (I recommend using two paper plates - one for the plate and other as the lid)

Chicken, soy sauce, vegetables. Can't be bad. If you hate peas, corn, or bell peppers, this might be a bad choice for you. I personally really like them, they won't make you full but it's a pleasant quality food than the other frozen ones. It is a bit on the pricey side though.


Lasagna - $3.00

5 minutes with the packaging - tear the corner open before microwaving

#1 most expensive food at the Cube. Decent amount, won't make you full though. I personally feel that the rice makes me more full. Is very hot out of the microwave. A little bit on the greasy side. Eat with knife and fork - ration the lasagna into bits and pieces and scoop with fork. (Beware, HOT)


Noodles


Udon - $1.25

LOVE UDON!!!!


Kimchi noodles - $1.25

Not bad. Doesn't taste anything like kimchi though. It's a good spice out of the ordinary food. There's no chopsticks at the Cube, so it's quite an experience having to use a fork to eat ramen. There's also no rice so as a Korean you feel like you're missing out on the "rice with broth" experience which I dearly miss.


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